My Nirvana Through Day Of Defeat

Last night, i had a spiritual epiphany.

I was invited to a night club near University for a frat sponsored party. The subtext (as implied by the person who invited me) was that i work on my skills at pickup and apply them to a real life situation. In the end, i decided not to go. I have two essays due in a week and a half and i cannot spend that time watching frat boys and sorority princesses jockeying for social position. And why would i wish to be among them, since I scorn most forms of Social Acceptance anyway.

So instead, i worked on some homework and finished the night off with some Day of Defeat. I messaged Dan to join me and together we "pwned" that server. We ended up being the two top ranked players on our team. I myself took to bobbing and weaving in and out of cover, cycling through each of the map's sniper positions to get the best shots. Guerrilla warfare is my game, scaring the enemy and taking him off guard. If he is constantly wondering where i am, he cannot fight effectively.

It was in the church were I had my revelation.

I was croched in the doorway armed with my Grenadier class bolt action rifle. Two allied soldiers were charging up the road approaching my position. Without thinking, i took aim and pulled the trigger. I saw one go down before i quickly retreated into the shadows of the church, thinking his buddy would see me. It was not until i was in the safety of the church did i see the frag reports.

I killed both of them with one shot.

It was then I had my epiphany: I love being a gamer.

It is experiences like the Two-fer kill that cannot compare with anyother experience. Perhaps that is why the role of the heart breaker has been such a difficult task for me. If you gave me an honest choice between making time with a girl or going ten rounds in DOD, i will chose the trenches any day.

I cannot give up my heritage. It is what makes me who I am
That is strength
That is Odin
That is me

If i lose that, I would have nothing.

This epiphany does not mean giving up girls. It means girls will have to accept me as the warrior i am. If they cannot, then they are short sighted and not worth my time.

I will always be the Kreacher of Blood and Rank who shall deserve every ounce of whats coming.